Back in the Depression Express
Its been a while since the last time I wrote something here. Many things have changed since my last post in 2016. I got married, I got a wonderful boy, my own apartment and even though I got a decent life path. I have done stuff like coming back to swimming, being the best in my category in Berlin and even in all Germany, and even having a decent job. But things have been more difficult than they look like on the surface. All that struggle was linked to a perfectly hidden high functional depression that I have been carrying since I came here. The result is that I have been trying to stupidly “protect” my family from worries by carrying a high debt on my shoulders. To add to the cake, things in my relationships have not been going well lately due to all the things in my head. Unfortunately, I realized my own condition quite late in the game, my life becomes a mess as a pebble rolling from the top of a snowy mountain. I lost my job, I lost my health, I struggle with my mar